This past year, I havent really felt the ”会いたい" kind of feeling...

been really focused on school... allowance money is at record low... and because there were so many solo activities that occurred consecutively, I knew i wouldn't have been able to go to any of them, so i just kinda... errr... gave up trying? 

that is until i watched the Takki Resort VTR!!!! a;osldkjfpaoijfa

DYINGGGG. I swear its the blonde Kyon hair. I've NEVER seen him live with blonde hair. So to be honest, I am really sad that I wasn't able to go to the fan event and that I'm not gonna be going to ResortCon!! 

キョンに会いたいぃ〜〜〜！！！

But deep down... on one hand, I'm kinda glad there was no official handshaking that happened at the event. Because I would've hated myself for not going. But on the other hand, that would've been so awesome for my friends who had actually attended the event!! 

sighhhh. I just wish that he'll have something special in late March / early April of next year. Besides Kabuki. Because I'm in urgent need of another dose of real-life, not-in-costume Takki (T__T) 

会いたい！！！！！！！！！！！

so its not official yet, but theres a good chance that T&T might come back in the fall. I didn't think it was true before, but i read that Tsubasa gave a huge obvious hint about it during Playzone.

Which makes me think. My timing was pretty bad.

Cause of school, I was only able to go to JP once during the Takki solo rush. I've missed so many activities... Although my previous trip was the best trip I had ever taken, it still kinda sucks that it might just be the last 100%-Takki-concentrated trip I'll ever take.

Next year's graduation trip will be more focused on sightseeing in Hokkaido because I've always wanted to go there. In fact, I wish i could live there someday. I might be able to squeeze in Osaka and Tokyo to see my JPese buddies, but... I definitely want to do some serious sightseeing this time around. 

anyway, back to T&T.

I'm trying to look at it from a positive perspective. Like I'm trying to relate myself to T&T fans. Afterall, Takki fans have waited forever for this solo rush, so we were really excited and happy when we finally got it. Hence, I understand how T&T fans might be feeling right now... to hear that they might finally get what they've been wishing for. 

And we've already gained so much during this solo rush. Everything we had ever wanted, besides a solo album, was granted. And for two full years, we got to see Takki shine in the spotlight that he deserved to be in; without having to share it with anyone else. And going back to unit would perhaps introduce some new and awesome songs (because T&T songs are undeniably catchy)

But somehow... I'm still getting this negative feeling (that has become sort of a natural reaction/second nature!) about the possible resurrection of T&T. I can't quite put a finger on it. It just feels really "ughh," you know what i mean? Probably cause no matter how hard I try to stay positive about this, deep down, I really want the solo streak to continue!! XD 

the second reason is... no matter how much we whine and request, we don't have a say in whats going to happen. Mary-san, who is obsessed with Tsubasa, does! So what can we do?

*sighhhhhhh*

But because my cats are such an important element in my life and because of what happened to Cow recently, I've created a new blog dedicated to my cats.

 [[ http://nekozukitachi.jugem.jp/]]　　よろしく〜！

So... I've moved out of my apartment on April 29. 

Kinda sad because I miss... going home to it at the end of each day. 

　　The location was perfect. It was just a block away from campus so restaurants,

　　stores, and classes were only a few minutes away.

　　The floor plan was small but really great in terms of how all the rooms fitted neatly

　　together. (It satisfied my OCD-ness.)

　　It gave me the privacy and the silence that I needed.

　　The newly remodeled bathroom made rent slightly more expensive but it was 

　　always clean and (most importantly) NOT SHARED. 

　　I was on the bottom floor so I never had to worry about stomping, jumping, etc 

　　and the person who lived above me was sometimes loud but he/she rarely came home.

　　Living by myself gave me control over my own time schedule. I slept, ate, and did 

　　things whenever I wanted to.

This is the anime that introduced me to Takki.

And ironically, it ended today, March 29, 2010, on Takki's birthday.

SIX YEARS!!! 

And honestly, I've never really liked Japanese manga/anime... or to be exact, I've always been afraid to like it... mainly due to the negative connotation that it has here in the US (Big thanks to otakus who wear coseplay to school and in public). But Inuyasha has always been a huge exception, and the only anime I would ever outwardly admit to liking. 

I never finished the manga though. But I have finished the entire anime series!! (with lots of Chinese-subbed bootleg DVDs to prove it hahaha~)

And late last year, when I found out that they were releasing the Final Act series (the anime version of the ending)... I sat myself down in front of my computer every Monday at 1 to watch the newest episode. Never missed a day in these past four months. 

But now... it's over (T_____T)

I was really satisfied with the ending though. Especially because there were loads of Sesshomaru-sama in the last couple of episodes (He is the only anime crush that I've ever had. And still crushing because he's so MY TYPE!! XDDD He's just so strong and so ridiculously beautiful. And even though he's always being portrayed as this cold-natured aristocrat, he has this gentle side of him that is brought out through his protectiveness over his little human admirer, Rin. Dies. I'm a sucker for these kinds of characters.)

All in all, Rumiko Takahashi-sama. You are a genius. 

AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR CREATING SUCH A BEAUTIFUL MASTERPIECE.

お誕生日、おめでとうございます！！！

これからも出来る限り応援したいと思いますので

またいつかお会い出来る日まで

お元気で、健康で、がんばってください！

そして、いつもファンの気持ちを考えてくれて、

大事にしてくれて、ありがとうございます〜〜

幸せいっぱいの２８歳になりますように〜

Exhausted. Hungry. Dying.

But once again, my sanity has been saved by the arrival of a new DVD!!! (> w <)

This is definitely my favorite butai dvd thus far. It was just different, perhaps because everyone was really hyped up for the senshuuraku. I think it just showed a lot of emotions (or borrowing from what Takki had said, the "kizuna" between all the members) that we haven't really seen in the other plays. 

Not to mention, there were a lot of ochame and hip-swinging fan service XD

(btw, is it just me, or was this Taste Me performance particularly SASSY?? then again, his dancing was really different throughout the entire play... in a good way though.)

And usually, i hate watching the endings. Because honestly, they're quite boring. But this time... it is again, DIFFERENT. When Nikki-san called Takki an「良い奴」(a "good guy" being the highest form of praise from one man to another)... It made me want to cry and yell "AMEN!!!" LOL 

Because to me, to the rest of his supporters, and to all the people who've ever gotten the chance to work with him, we all know that he is a genuinely good person. I mean, he's aware of what we do for him and reciprocates that appreciation by pushing himself to work harder. That kind of gratitude and mentality is not something that every geinoujin has or expresses. So he of all people deserves to be called that after everything that he has done out of care for the people around him (both in work and in his private life).  

Another scene from the ending that really touched me was when Takki came out for the second curtain call and said "Right now, I feel like I'm a really lucky person... To be standing on such a grand stage, surrounded by such amazing staff, amazing performers, and an amazing audience like this, it's really a blessed thing. Like I'm glad to be alive."  

滝沢さんの幸せな姿を見ると、

こんな良い男を好きになった私も、

嬉しくて幸せな気持ちになりました〜

But his Tsubass would've been SUED a long time ago 

if he released a cover title like that in America.

i mean its pretty obvious where the "BACKBONE" idea came from.

Everyone's like "oh how clever~ he invented this new sexy word that means something like rebellious nature blah blah blah And he did it simply by replacing the NE with RN!!" 

umm... yea. sure. Whatever floats your boat.

you guys know where it REALLY came from right?

Like, just to give an example... HIS UNDIES??

Whatever the case may be, I'm still (to a certain degree) happy for the Tsubasa fans. At least now they understand how we felt when Avex released Takki's first single. That "OMG, FINALLY!!" kind of adrenaline that sends goosebumps up your arms. It feels good to finally get what you've been dying to have! So in a way, i can relate.

But you know... everything is just so hypocritical when it comes to the other T. It really peeves me that the same "Takitsuba fans" who were whining about Takki's single are now celebrating over Tsu's. And you'd think that after the big announcement about upcoming unit activities, people would frown upon any additional signs of solo. But obviously, we didn't get the finely printed memo that Tsu's single is to be (yet another!) exception.

And one more thing.

If I remember correctly, didn't Tsubasa recently apologize to his fans for making them wait so long for the unit? 

...... so then, why is he choosing this time to release a single? 

You see what my point is?!

It just doesn't add up.

I wish i could see what everyone else sees in Tsubasa. But i really can't get myself to do that when Takki isn't being treated with the same kind of respect. I don't feel a bit of guilt for talking about Tsu and the T&T fans this way because at least I'm staying true to what I've claimed to be. A Takki-dake fan. I don't go around telling everyone how much I love the two-man unit when in actuality, I'm always favoring one man over the other. 

Of course, thats just the opinion of a girl who's always way too quick to speak her mind. I've really gotta fix this bad habit of mine sometime lol. Though its not that my opinion really matters at all in this little world called "The T&T fandom."