My good-for-nothing aunt called my mom today just to chat and whine about how poor she is, now that she is about to lose her job. She said to my mom "Ask your husband for another big vacation. Come back to Hong Kong with my fiance in February!" or something like that. And my mom said "I will! I'll talk to him. But if I'm going to come back, Im not going settle for anything less than 2 months. Because it'll at least take me a week to cure the jetlag, you know?"
After her THIRD fucking call (all within an hour), i just lost it.
I sat my mom down and told her that I thought her conversation was stupid. Ok, I wasn't THAT blunt, but i said that jetlag is NOT an excuse and that i couldn't believe that she would even SUGGEST going back to HK again for another two months, especially when she had just vacationed there (for two months) at the beginning of 2009!!
I said that the moment she had agreed to move here to America, she should've known (and should've prepared herself for the fact) that she wouldn't be able to go back to HK, at least not EVERY YEAR. Back when the economy was still doing pretty well, we were lucky enough to have the kind of money to go back to HK every summer. But that was then. This is now. The economy has only started to repair itself... so at this stage, going on another long trip just sounds ridiculous to me!!
So then my mom said, "Oh, so you can go to Japan every year, but I can't go back to HK to see my family?" I was taken aback and said "Don't even go there, mom. I admit that I've spent a lot of money on trips to Japan, but at least I know where to draw the line. Even I have accepted the fact that I can't and shouldn't go to Japan this year."
Cause seriously. I go to the events and then I leave immediately the following day. I always stay at a cheap hotel and eat cheap ramen and meals from the combini. I'm never even been there long enough to have the time to shop or go sightseeing!!
I have never tried to leave my family and run off for two months.
My mom on the other hand... she left when she had an argument with my dad, when my uncle was getting married, when my cousin was born, when my other cousin was born, last year when my uncle underwent surgery... which by the way! I didn't expect that I was going to spend my winter break at a hospital or at uncle's house, cleaning up after someone else's shit!
And before the begging process, I actually earn my trips to Japan, thankyouverymuch. I really work my ass off in school to earn those privileges. But my mom on the other hand is a full-time housewife, yet she doesn't even clean or cook very often. All she does sometimes is sit and watch TV or play computer games. WTF.
I understand that life over here can be really boring. And as much as she misses her family there... it was her decision to come here. I know she did it for my sake, and of course i'm grateful, but she needs to realize that it is just as unfair to her as it is to dad, who's actually paying for all of these vacations with his own money! She's probably thinking "Well your dad has enough savings to go on a month-long trip to China..." WELL YEA BECAUSE ITS HIS MONEY AND HE CAN DO WHATEVER THE SHIT HE WANTS WITH IT?!?!
And i just hate how easily she allows herself to be manipulated by my aunt. She always complains about how my aunt's stories never match up and how she cares for no one but herself. (HERRO~~ *waves* I've been trying trying to get that point across for only what, 10 years?!?). But my deceased grandparents wanted the family to always stick together, so my mom is forced to get along with her.
Well i know that if my grandparents could see all the shit that she's trying to pull right now... they'd probably disown her (again). So it pisses me off that my mom is always chatting with her over the phone, laughing and gossiping as though they're bff's. Because most of the time, after they've hung up, she'll start ranting about the things that my aunt had said. How she's a bitch for doing this, how she's selfish for doing that...
All of it just sounds so fake to me. Mom, you're the eldest in that family. If you don't man up and put her in her place and confront her about all the shit she's been doing... it's no wonder my aunt is 45 and is still a self-centered pathological liar!!
but yea, anyway, my mom is mad at me for saying what i said. Which bothers me, but at the same time, i feel relieved for finally getting all that off my chest.
But his Tsubass would've been SUED a long time ago
if he released a cover title like that in America.
i mean its pretty obvious where the "BACKBONE" idea came from.
Everyone's like "oh how clever~ he invented this new sexy word that means something like rebellious nature blah blah blah And he did it simply by replacing the NE with RN!!"
umm... yea. sure. Whatever floats your boat.
you guys know where it REALLY came from right?
Like, just to give an example... HIS UNDIES??
Whatever the case may be, I'm still (to a certain degree) happy for the Tsubasa fans. At least now they understand how we felt when Avex released Takki's first single. That "OMG, FINALLY!!" kind of adrenaline that sends goosebumps up your arms. It feels good to finally get what you've been dying to have! So in a way, i can relate.
But you know... everything is just so hypocritical when it comes to the other T. It really peeves me that the same "Takitsuba fans" who were whining about Takki's single are now celebrating over Tsu's. And you'd think that after the big announcement about upcoming unit activities, people would frown upon any additional signs of solo. But obviously, we didn't get the finely printed memo that Tsu's single is to be (yet another!) exception.
And one more thing.
If I remember correctly, didn't Tsubasa recently apologize to his fans for making them wait so long for the unit?
...... so then, why is he choosing this time to release a single?
You see what my point is?!
It just doesn't add up.
I wish i could see what everyone else sees in Tsubasa. But i really can't get myself to do that when Takki isn't being treated with the same kind of respect. I don't feel a bit of guilt for talking about Tsu and the T&T fans this way because at least I'm staying true to what I've claimed to be. A Takki-dake fan. I don't go around telling everyone how much I love the two-man unit when in actuality, I'm always favoring one man over the other.
Of course, thats just the opinion of a girl who's always way too quick to speak her mind. I've really gotta fix this bad habit of mine sometime lol. Though its not that my opinion really matters at all in this little world called "The T&T fandom."
And there is finally a course that I am actually enjoying.
Its called Readings in Japanese Culture.
Basically what we do in class is translate chapters of a Japanese novel to English. On Tuesday night, i stayed up until 6 am doing five pages of translations... and even though I was hella tired from doing all that searching in the kanji dictionaries (words from the PDF couldn't be copied and pasted... so everything was done MANUALLY *thuds*), I'm so happy that i'm finally able to take a class that allows me to study and practice my translating skills under a professor who's a real translator.
It just feels so good to hear "That was excellent" again.
I haven't heard that kind of praise from a professor in a while...
Cause sometimes in college, you're lucky if you even PASS a class.
Of course, he also reminded us that EN-JP translators are not only required to know Japanese... they must also have a high level of proficiency in English. We have to really know all the grammatical / linguistic terms and formats that we don't really pay attention to in real life conversations. That's the hard part of the job, I guess. So for people who have never tried to translate anything... you don't really understand how difficult it is when you come upon a word that has no direct english translation... or how long it sometimes takes to tear apart and reconstruct a sentence.
but even though it's a lot of work (especially considering the fact that I'm also taking Japanese 422 and another anthropology class about modern Japanese society) I'm really liking it. I'm sure I'll probably start complaining about it later in the quarter, but right now, I really feel like I've found something that I want to do as a future career. Which is a big step for me...
So many things have happened that i cant even remember them all. One thing's for sure. It has been one hectic year!! Aside from all the good and bad things that have happened in my personal life, school life has also been kinda tough as I'm trying to keep up my grades. But I'm trying to "reach out" more and from that, I've gained a lot of new friends and experiences that have allowed me to learn more about myself. So overall, I've been feeling very thankful and blessed~
ESPECIALLY for the 100% Takki-dake year!
Even though i always complain about how one year is not enough, I'm glad that it actually happened. I mean, there were actually a lot of things that happened in a short period of time. The opening of Takizawa Kakumei, the rare promo events & appearances, the three singles made of self-composed songs, a solo tour, the drama series that we've all been longing for... Many of the thing on our wishlists were finally granted to us and they've surely kept us busy and entertained throughout the whole year. So thank you JE and Avex, even though u guys might not realize exactly how much we appreciate all this solo attention...
I dont really have any resolutions for the new year, since I'm too much of a procrastinator XD But this coming April, i'll be turning 20 (yikes). It's one of those celebrated numbers, you know? With the new "2" in front, i feel more like an adult?
On one hand, I want to be treated more like a mature individual. I'm sick of hearing "You're still a child, we dont know if you'd understand" and "you'll understand when you grow older." I really believe that the level of someone's maturity and intelligence should not be questioned because of their age. We all have different life experiences so just because you're older, it doesnt necessarily mean that you have more knowledge/experience in absolutely everything. (Sorry, got off track again LOL)
On the other hand, growing older makes me miss the carefree... errrr... the less stressful lifestyle of being a kid. Like the good ol' days when essays were only three paragraphs long XD
Mahh~ i just hope that this year, I'll be able to keep up my grades, meet more people, and learn how to take care of myself more. And hopefully there will be just as many solo activities as there are unit buahahaha~ May my 20th year will be just as amazing as my 19th ^___^;
It's been such a long time since I've watched Inuyasha.
It's the only anime series that I've actually liked and still like.
And just now, i finished watching thirteen episodes from the Final Act.
Yappari, even for someone who doesnt like anime, it is really addicting!!
** spoilers ahead, if anyone even cares lol **
First, i would like to say that I'm glad Kikiyo has finally died!!! XD
My goodness, that woman was not only creepy but also persistent.
Never liked her cause I've always been an Inuyasha & Kagome supporter.
And Kagome was right. Inuyasha and Kikiyo have a past that she could never interfere with, but at the same time, Kagome has also gone through a lot of experiences with Inuyasha. Ones that Kikiyo can't interfere with. And it frustrates me that Inuyasha tends to forget that sometimes because he's so obsessed with what happened 50 years go. Just makes me wonder... if both Kagome and Kikiyo were both weak and in serious danger and he could only save one... i wonder which one he would save? This is perhaps why Kikiyo's death was a relief? LOL
Of course, Sesshomaru-sama doesnt have to worry much about things like that... cause he only cares about Rin!! OMGGG Episode 9 was so Kyaaaa~~~ All the reasons why Sesshomaru was my favorite character came rushing back. The anime version of him is so damn beautiful too!!! And the way he touched Rin's face after she was brought back to life... *sniffs* Sesshomaru-sama~~~
Speaking of which... Sesshomaru's mother??? who would've thought that she'd actually appear in the Final act! Let's just say that Sesshomaru-sama got the best from both sides ^__^ All of which includes Tensaiga. Which apparently has the power to kill!! Rumiko Takahashi, how on earth do you come up with all these friggin ingenious plots?!
So i finally took an in-depth look at the We-want-T&T-back! website.
I was vomiting blood when i first heard about it at the forum lol
but since then, I've been completely ignoring the site because
i knew that it would blow one of the vessels in my brain XD
but after reading it... all i can say is... wow.
maybe i'm biased but the whole thing just seems really disrespectful in a way. I mean, OK, lets not even consider the feelings of solo fans for a second and think about what this project is actually attempting to do.
It gives off a vibe that reads : "We're not completely satisfied with what you're doing right now, so stop it and do what we want! Otherwise, it wouldn't be fair to us!" Which doesn't really seem like an appropriate thing to say to entertainers who are already doing everything that they can to satisfy all the different demographics and preferences of their fans.
For god sakes, T&T are simply TRYING TO DO THEIR JOBS.
Yes, its a job. We sometimes tend to forget that. Its not so much the dramatized *~unity of two destined companions~*, but more like... what they do for a living and a hobby?! They're only trying to enjoy their work. Theres no need for us to force our emotions on them and make their jobs any harder / more complicated than they already are.
Another thing that peeves me... is this line :
"This project is not set out as a petition
since the conditions in many aspects
has been considered carefully."
That made no fuckin sense whatsoever.
First of all, a petition is a respectful request made to a superior in hopes that he/she/they will fulfill whatever is desired. This project has a clear objective and everyone participating is requesting for the same thing. HELLO~~ this is in EVERY WAY a petition!!! Its like these people have the guts to make this kind of "project," but are too scared of causing trouble so they avoid calling it a petition.
Oh and second of all. They make it seem like this project represents the opinions of everyone in the fandom. Which is obviously not true. And I dont wan't T&T / Johnny-san to think that for a minute!!
I used to be a T&T fan too... There was a point in time when I thought that the unit was strong and practically invincible. And that nothing in the world could beat the deep emotions we always got from the unit concerts. But later (aside from the fact that my interests changed), it kinda dawned on me that... Takki and Tsubasa can't even go over to each others' houses nowadays because they feel too embarrassed to. THEY'RE JUST NOT THE SAME UNIT AS THEY WERE BACK THEN. Even if the unit returns next year... i think that "nanka chigau" feeling will still be there. And as hard as it is, people just have to start admitting that.
dunno why. its one of those sudden phases i guess.
i just think that a wedding is (or should be) something thats really precious, regardless of what the marriage becomes in the future. My mom has always told me that a woman is the most beautiful when she's in her wedding gown. Not to mention, its not always easy to find a person whom you love and loves you, at least enough to want to celebrate the relationship through an expensive event (and in front of a lot of witnesses).
Lately, I've been looking at a lot of wedding magazines, watching TV shows about wedding designs, and thinking about what kind of wedding I'd like to have when and IF it ever happens to me (even though I'm only 19 and i dont even have a boyfriend right now XD).
I dunno if i'll change my mind in the future, but i saw this venue in a magazine and it made me feel like i wanted to get married there immediately LOL
"The Music Hall on the Ocean" venue @ The Luigans hotel resort in Fukuoka, Japan.
its probably the panoramic view of the sea that got me sold!! lol oh oh oh~ then i thought about the after-party... and i saw this~ The Grand Ocean party venue.
O.M.G. i had no idea that such beautiful venues existed!! But of course, it would probably cost a fortune... and everyone's gotta travel to Fukuoka?!? but then again... its not like i want to get married anywhere else besides Japan... One thing's for sure : I'm NOT going to get married here in Seattle. Ewww~
i hope it really ends up being at the Luigans... but first and foremost... i cant wed myself! i gotta find a partner first!! ROFL tho its probably not a good idea to rush into a marriage only for the ceremony! buahaha~ it's silly, but i think its just one of the phases of girlhood. I mean, I've always believed that no matter how independent, strong, and successful a woman is, there will always be those days when you settle down and think about how amazing it would be to experience that fairy-tale wedding and have that "mental support" that only a spouse could give. A woman is a woman! shouganai yo~
i just wish that i'll be lucky enough to find that in the future!! Cause i already feel like a cat lady now... (i love cats too much) LOLLL
OMGGGGGGGG. I'm so addicted to 宮心計 (Beyond the Realm of Conscience).
When it first came out, i thought to myself, "Theres no way TVB could produce a better drama than Moonlight Resonance or Heart of Greed!!"
I WAS WRONG.
*squeees* its sooooo good~~~~~~
Episode 20 is still my favorite tho. As a woman (and to be specific, an HK woman) i simply can not resist watching the bitch slapping and the evil schemes! buahaha~ And Tavia Yeung is so pretty!! i cannot believe how incredible her acting is...
And dont even get me started on the Tang dynasty costumes and the hair pieces... sometimes, i have to pause the video because i end up gazing at how beautiful everything is XD It almost makes me want to work for TVB lol
But I'm stuck on episode 26 because the stupid and slow vietnam site that i'm downloading it from is perhaps the ONLY site that has it in .AVI
And RAWS are impossible to find nowadays... it wouldnt be a problem tho if only i could use bittorrent... v_v;
Everyone, if you're in the mood and you have time to watch a 33 episode drama, YOU NEED TO WATCH BEYOND THE REALM OF CONSCIENCE~~~
all i can think about is how annoying this whole thing is.
i mean, is it really necessary to mention the unit 10+ times during a MC?
what, now all of the sudden, he has become the spokesperson for the unit?
"WE will certainly return... WE will never forget..."
What is the meaning of all this?!
He hardly talked about the unit during these past 18 months, and all of the sudden, he's starting to say "Takitsuba" over and over again like a broken recorder.
maybe my scared and disappointed conscience is trying to do everything that it can to deny the possibility that unit activities will return next year... but i refuse to believe any of it until i personally hear it from Takki.
.... there i go sounding hateful about Tsu and the unit again.
i admit that i have no interest in either one, but i truly dont have anything against them. I just feel like these two "elements" are trying to take away something thats really precious to me. I hate repeating myself, but i can't stress how important and influential his solo activities have been for me and for a lot of his fans. My first trip to Japan and my first concert happened because of a solo con. My first and probably last physical interaction with him happened because of his first solo single.
Years from now, these are the memories that I'll remember most about my life and my youth. I want Takki to continue as a solo entertainer so that his fans could have the opportunity to create more of these memories of him. And I dont want the unit to sabotage any of this. Unit fans have gotten 7 years of Takitsuba. Solo fans were only given a year of Takizawa Hideaki.
rereading my past entries... damn, i am really pessimistic!!
i still feeling kinda *blah* about Tsubasa's announcement tho...
T&T are apparently going to be coming back next year.
im not really excited for it...
not because i hate the unit (even though thats what my entries come off as)
its just that i was really hoping for more solo activities.
I've been waiting for this solo streak for so long....
not to mention, we are SO SO SO CLOSE to getting a Takki solo album!!!
mah... i guess it can't be helped.
i dunno, i think im just being a poo-faith because i wont be able to see Takki this year. I've been going every winter for the past four years... so something just feels off this year? That's probably why i've completely lost my motivation and i am feeling too lazy to even begin studying for finals. Theres no point in working hard if theres no reward for it!! XD
demo ne... I cant believe that it has already been a year.
